Know
2021 | 13 years old
your words of wisdom linger in my mind
but patiently
they wait to whisper when i need to hear your voice
and they stick around just long enough for me to make a choice
all i can grasp of your life
is little snippets and clips they show me
i can barely recall the nursery rhymes
you’d sing in my sleep
they tell me of the your time
intertwined with mine
when i knew you so well
but they’re imposters of memories
i feel your smile in the wind
see your reflection in the water
the birds chirp to your favorite songs
the sun shines in your honor
i only knew you for so long
but i sense your presence everywhere i walk
i only knew you for so long
but you play in the background of my days like a theme song
it’s feels like i knew you for so long
it’s like you paint the colors in my life
little things you leave behind
that send me back to those days
when i’d wake up to a a misty haze
to have understood what i know now
those days are so rarely found
i regret, so full of shame
that i only lived them half-way
unaware of how much they’re worth nowadays
mustn’t ever dare to let them slip away
i feel your smile in the wind
see your reflection in the water
the birds chirp to your favorite songs
the sun shines in your honor
i only knew you for so long
but i can catch your voice when i talk
i only knew you for so long
but you play in the background of my days like a folk song
it’s feels like i knew you for so long
i can envision all of you
sitting at the bench i go to
waiting to rest and write with me
planting ideas and beliefs
i can envision all of you
standing there knowing me
standing there maybe proud of me
having seen my life played out like a movie
and i hear faint voices telling me
a million different dreams
a million different ways to be
your faces flashing like pictures from a daydream
i take it all in with a tranquil breath
the sunset you painted now is by far the best
i feel your smile in the wind
see your reflection in the water
the birds chirp to your favorite songs
the sun shines in your honor
i hope i know you for forever
i hope i know this for forever